If we live long enough, we are all likely to meet an immovable object in our lives, something we can't ignore or work through at the moment, or just bull our way through. I finally met my immovable object.
For me, it was the sudden onset of lower back pain. It did not last long, but while it lasted the pain was excruciating. I have not been stabbed with a knife, so I cannot say for sure, but the onset was so sudden that it seems like all the descriptions I have ever heard of pain from being stabbed with a knife.
I have seen the doctor, gotten an Nsaid gel, and started Physical Therapy. All that said, I motivate myself now that the pain and the memory of those moments are fading of when I was visited with sudden, excruciating pain so bad that I could not move -- and even when I stood still it did not make the pain go away completely -- I motivate myself now by forcing myself to remember.
Now that I know that there are some kinds of pain that I cannot just push my way through, that I cannot just accept and deal with from that point on, I am ready for the next round. Not afraid, but aware now that I have limitations. I am still going forward, but with an awareness that I did not have before.
GO FORWARD
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